Love

“Guilty!”

The dreaded sentence has been pronounced against His beloved.  Now she must face the consequences of all her bad choices.

The things she’s done are repulsive to Him.  Even so, He knows in His heart that He still loves her deeply.  He can’t bear to think of her suffering.

So He insists on taking her sentence that she may go free and have a chance at a better life.

The idea proves far easier than the action.  The sentence is excruciating!  Yet all through the agonizing punishment, the cruel, blasphemous taunting and mockery, the torturous beatings, and the inhuman crucifixion, thoughts of only one person fill His mind.

Her.

I’m so glad she doesn’t have to go through this, He says to Himself.  I’m so glad I could do this for her.

It won’t be much longer nowHe reminds Himself as the pain intensifies.  Soon we can be together again.  Forever.  I will gladly bear scars for all eternity if it means that she is spared! I love her so much!

He suffers in silence as the hours drag by like eons.

Just a little while longer, He repeats, and we can be together forever.

Father, He prays in the midst of His agony and humiliation, help Me make it through this for her sake.  Just a little while longer. Just a little… while… longer…

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He saw her coming from afar.  Finally!  The reunion He longed for was about to be a reality!  The one thing that kept Him going through the most unbearable moments of His ordeal was the thought of her.  He had done it all for her.  So that beautiful smile He loved could always illuminate her face.  To think, they would soon be married!  And then nothing would ever separate them again.

Now, as she drew near, He had eyes only for her.  The smile was on her face as she scanned the tiny garden, their special meeting place, looking for Him.

He stepped out of the shadows of the trees into the sunlight, all the love He had for her written on His face.  The she saw Him…

And gasped, drawing back in horror.

“What is it?” He asked, His own smile replaced by a look of bewilderment.   Looking down, He checked His appearance, really noticing the huge, hideous scars on His hands and feet for the first time.  He nodded, understandingly.  “I know, the scars are ugly and quite shocking, but in time, we will hardly even notice they’re there.”

But she was shaking her head, backing away slowly.

“Darling, what is it?”  He asked again, taking a step towards her.

She stumbled five steps backwards.  “I’m sorry, I can’t…”

“Can’t what?”

“I can’t….marry you!”

“But…why not?  I love you, and you love Me.  You said yes to My proposal.”

“I know, but…  How can I explain…”  She couldn’t finish the thought or bear to look Him in His eyes.  “It’s just…Your scars disgust me,” she finally whispered.  “How will I explain them to anyone?  Everyone would stare at us, whispering, wondering.  It would be so…”  She again averted her eyes, her face heating with shame.

“But I went through all that for you. Because I love you,” He pleaded with her to understand.  “Who cares what people think, as long as we’re together?”

“It’s more than that, I mean…What You did for me was nice, but…”  For a long moment, she stared at the ground, as a tear slipped from her eye and slid down her cheek.  Finally, eyes still on the ground, she whispered, “I just…can’t do ‘forever.’  That’s my whole life!  There’s so much I want to do, so much I want to experience.”  She slowly backed away, shaking her head.  “I…I love You.  I really do, but…not enough for forever.  I’m sorry!”

Then she turned and fled down the hillside path.

“Wait!  Please!” He called, starting after her.  “I love you and everything I’ve promised you will more than make up for anything you may miss out on here.”

She halted and turned to look back, her conflicting desires playing across her face like a movie.

“Please, please,” He pleaded, “come to Me.  Stay with Me.  Marry Me. “

She hesitated, frozen in indecision while tears streamed down her face.  She took a step towards Him.

His heart gave a tiny leap of joy.  The next instant His blood ran cold within Him as a hooded figure stepped out from behind a tree and grabbed hold of her hand.  It was His enemy!  Even in the shadows of the hood he still recognized that ominously attractive face, and the mocking smile.  It sent a fresh slice of agony through His heart.

“Come, my love,” the enemy said to her as he pulled her around to face him.  “We have so much to do!  There is so much I want to show you!”  He started back down the path, coaxing her along gently yet insistently.

He had her full attention, so captivated was she.  She only hesitated one second more to look back over her shoulder at Him.  Then she followed the hooded enemy.

The choice was hers.  There was nothing more He could do.  He would not force her; for then, she would be unhappy.  Still, it cut His tender heart in two to watch her ride off into the sunset with His enemy.

Betrayed.

By one He loved so dearly.

And with His deepest enemy!

It was late when He finally made His way down the hill, His heart breaking with a pain greater than all He had felt before.

Sovereignty and Faith

Sovereignty.

A noun, defined as “supreme power or authority.”

The Bible is loaded with texts describing God’s sovereignty.  The following are just a small sampling:

“You are worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honor and power; for You created all things, and by Your will they exist and were created.” Revelation 4:11.

“All the inhabitants of the earth are reputed as nothing; He does according to His will in the army of heaven and among the inhabitants of the earth.  No one can restrain His hand or say to Him, “What have You done?”  Daniel 4:35.

“The heavens are Yours, the earth also is Yours; the world and all its fullness, You have founded them.” Psalm 89:11.

God’s supreme power and authority were recognized by the apostles:

“That I may come to you with joy by the will of God, and may be refreshed together with you.” Romans 15:32.

“Instead you ought to say, ‘If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that.’” James 4:15.

Clearly, the Bible teaches us that God’s power is above all.  His authority is over all.  God is sovereign.

This reality should make us feel safer, more secure, more confident in the loving, merciful, holy God we’ve come to know.  Yet all too often, in spite of it, we allow Satan’s niggling seeds of doubt to slip in through one of his infamous “if…why” questions, like, “If God is sovereign, why is there so much pain, suffering, and disease in the world?”

Many others have given solid Biblical answers to that question, so I’m not going to focus on that.  What I am going to focus on is our response to God’s sovereignty.

Is it faith or feeling?

If asked whether or not God is sovereign, I believe most Christians would say yes, He is.  But then something bad happens.  You lose your job, and your bills start mounting up as you search week after week, month after month for a new job.  You’re forced to downsize to one vehicle and move into a tiny apartment before finally finding employment and getting back on your feet.  Maybe years go by without you ever getting back to where you previously were financially.

Do you still believe God is sovereign?  Was He still in complete control as you struggled to provide for yourself and maybe your family?

How about illness?  Do we accept God’s sovereignty in the death of a cherished family member or friend?  It’s not so hard when the loved one has lived a full life.  But how about when it’s a child, or a young person my own age, whose life is suddenly taken in some freak accident or by a painful illness?  Is God still sovereign?  Do I still trust Him even as I watch a dear friend suffering from a disease that I know He can heal?  Is my response to His sovereignty one of faith or feeling?

The knowledge that God is sovereign (omnipotent) must be accompanied by two things:

1) the knowledge that He is all-knowing (omniscient) and present everywhere (omnipresent), and

2) a surrender to and faith in Him as the all-knowing, ever-present, all-powerful authority.

And that can be really difficult for us.  As humans, we like to know why.  We have to understand why things happen this way or that way.  If we don’t know the reasons behind an action or inaction, we consider it “stupid,” or “dumb.”  Don’t believe me?  Try telling someone to do something unusual without giving them any reasons, and see how they respond.

We want to know why.  But God doesn’t always tell us why.  Just as a good parent knows how much is appropriate to share with a small child, God knows how much is in our best interests to know about why things happen the way they do.

On this ground, our relationship with God is tested.  If we have formed a relationship with Him through trust in His Word, the Bible, we know that He is love (1 John 4:8; John 3:16); that He is self-sacrificing (1 John 4:9, 10); that His heart is moved with compassion by our pain and suffering (Matthew 20:34; Mark 1:41); that His number one priority is to save all who want to be saved (2 Peter 3:9, Ezekiel 33:11); that He welcomes humble, sincere questions (Psalm 10, 74), but does not accept doubt (Luke 12:29; 1 Timothy 2:8; James 1:6); that He is merciful and gracious (Exodus 34:6); that He is forgiving (Exodus 34:7; 1 John 1:9); that He is both the source of truth and truth itself (John 1:14, 17; John 14:6; John 17:17; Ephesians 4:20-23)…and the list can go on and on.  His Word reveals who He is and what He’s like.  We read it, study it, and through faith accept it (Romans 10:17).  In other words, we choose to believe and trust that this is the way He is; just like we believe and trust that our friends are the way we’ve observed them to be. So if we’ve come to know and trust God through His Word, we will know what we can expect from Him.

For example, if I know He is love, and He is touched by our suffering, it will change the way I view the death of a loved one.  I still may not understand why He didn’t heal my friend, but I will trust that He is all-knowing, all-powerful, ever-present, and the embodiment of love.  I will know that He is sovereign, even though I don’t understand, and that His will is perfect (Psalm 18:30, Romans 12:2).

Sometimes this is really hard.  Especially in those moments when I think I know the best way for things to happen and then find all my plans thwarted.  But I must make a choice, once and for all.  Do I believe Christ’s Word when it teaches me that He is sovereign, and am I going to trust His sovereignty no matter what?  Like Job, do I trust Him enough to accept good and bad, knowing He showers me with the good, and doesn’t allow more bad than I can handle?

I’ve made my choice.  I believe.  I trust Him.

How about you?